LATERALUS

The Grudge
    Wear your grudge like a crown of negativity.
    Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.
    Desperate to control all and everything.
    Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.

    Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
    Justify denials and grip it to the lonesome end.
    Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
    Terrified of being wrong. Ultimatum prison cell.

    Saturn ascends, choose one or ten. Hang on or be humbled again.

    Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
    Justify denials and grip it to the lonesome end.
    Saturn ascends, comes round again.
    Saturn ascends, the one, the ten. Ignorant to the damage done.

    Wear your grudge like a crown of negativity.
    Calculate what you will or will not tolerate.
    Desperate to control all and everything.
    Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.

    Wear the grudge like a crown. Desperate to control.
    Unable to forgive. And we're sinking deeper.

    Defining, confining, sinking deeper. Controlling, defining, and we're sinking deeper.

    Saturn comes back around to show you everything
    Let's you choose what you will not see and then
    Drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again
    Spits you out like a child, light and innocent.

    Saturn comes back around. Lifts you up like a child or
    Drags you down like a stone to
    Consume you till you choose to let this go.
    Choose to let this go.

    Give away the stone. Let the oceans take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor.
    Give away the stone. Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.

    Let go.

The Patient
    A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful.
    Is this a test?
    It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on.
    Draining patience. drain vitality.
    this paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.

    But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here.
    But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here.

    I'm gonna wait it out

    If there were no rewards to reap,
    no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
    I certainly would've walked away by now.

    I'm gonna wait it out

    If there were no desire to heal
    The damaged and broken met along this tedious path I've chosen here,
    I certainly would've walked away by now.

    I still may. And I still may.
    Be patient.

    I must keep reminding myself of this...

    If there were no rewards to reap,
    no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
    I certainly would've walked away by now.
    And I still may. And I still may. And I still may.

    I'm gonna wait it out.
    I'm gonna wait it out.
    Gonna wait it out.
    Gonna wait it out.
Schism
    I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them fall away
    mildewed and smoldering, fundamental differing,
    pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion
    disintegrating as it goes testing our communication
    the light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so
    we cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication.

    I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them tumble down
    no fault, none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to
    point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over.
    To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication.

    The poetry that comes from the squaring off between,
    And the circling is worth it.
    Finding beauty in the dissonance.

    There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall away.
    Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting
    I've done the the math enough to know the dangers of a second guessing
    Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication

    cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion

    between supposed lovers
    between supposed brothers.

    And I know the pieces fit.
Parabol
    So familiar and overwhelmingly warm
    This one, this form I hold now.
    Embracing you, this reality here,
    This one, this form I hold now, so
    Wide eyed and hopeful.
    Wide eyed and hopefully wild.

    We barely remember what came before this precious moment,
    Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside...
    This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone in
    This body makes me feel eternal. All this pain is an illusion.
Parabola
    We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment,
    We are Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside...
    This holy reality, this holy experience. Choosing to be here in...

    This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
    This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion.

    Alive

    This holy reality, in this holy experience. Choosing to be here in...

    This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
    This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion...
    Of what it means to be alive

    Swirling round with this familiar parable.
    Spinning, weaving round each new experience.
    Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this
    chance to be alive and breathing
    chance to be alive and breathing.

    This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality.
    Embrace this moment. Remember. we are eternal.
    all this pain is an illusion.
Ticks & Leeches
    Suck and suck. Suckin up all you can suckin up all you can suck.
    Workin up under my patience like a little tick.
    Fat little parasite. Suck me dry.
    My blood is bruised and borrowed. You thieving bastards.
    You have turned my blood cold and bitter,
    beat my compassion black and blue.

    Hope this is what you wanted.
    Hope this is what you had in mind.
    Cuz this is what you're getting.
    I hope you're choking. I hope you choke on this.
    I hope you're choking. I hope you choke on this.

    Taken all I can taken all I can, we can take. Taken all you can taken you can, we can take.
    Got nothing left to give to you.
    Blood suckin parasitic little blood suckin parasitic little
    blood suckin parasitic little tick
    Take what you want and then go.

    Suck me dry.

    Is this what you wanted?
    Is this what you had in mind?
    Is this what you wanted?
    Cuz this this is what you're getting.
    I hope, I hope, I hope you choke.
Lateralus
    Black then white are all i see in my infancy.
    red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.
    lets me see.
    as below, so above and beyond, I imagine
    drawn beyond the lines of reason.
    Push the envelope. Watch it bend.

    Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
    Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
    Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines.

    Black then white are all i see in my infancy.
    red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.
    lets me see there is so much more and
    beckons me to look thru to these infinite possibilities.
    as below, so above and beyond, I imagine
    drawn outside the lines of reason.
    Push the envelope. Watch it bend.

    over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
    Withering my intuition leaving opportunities behind.
    Feed my will to feel this moment urging me to cross the line.
    Reaching out to embrace the random.
    Reaching out to embrace whatever may come.

    I embrace my desire to
    I embrace my desire to
    feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow
    to feel inspired to fathom the power, to witness the beauty,
    to bathe in the fountain,
    to swing on the spiral
    to swing on the spiral
    to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human.

    With my feet upon the ground I move myeslf between the sounds and open wide to suck it in.
    I feel it move across my skin.
    I'm reaching up and reaching out. I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me.
    what ever will bewilder me.
    And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been.
    We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been.
    Spiral out. Keep going.
    Spiral out. Keep going.
    Spiral out. Keep going.
    Spiral out. Keep going.
    Spiral out. Keep going.
Disposition
    mention this to me.
    mention something, anything..
    and watch the weather change.
Reflection
    I find that I can see a light at the end down
    Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole.
    Defeated I Concede and move closer. I may find comfort here
    I may find peace within the emptiness. How pitiful.
    It's calling me.
    It's calling me.
    It's calling me.
    It's calling me.

    And in my darkest moment, fetal and weeping.
    The moon tells me a secret. My confidant.
    As full and bright as I am, this light is not my own
    A million light reflections pass over me
    It's source is bright and endless.
    She resuscitates the hopeless
    Without her we are lifeless satellites dreaming dreams.
    And as I pull my head out I am without one doubt
    Don't want to be down here feeding my narcissism
    I must crucify the ego before it's far too late
    I pray the light lifts me out before I pine away.
    before I pine away.
    before I pine away.
    before I pine away.

    So crucify the ego before it's far too late
    To leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical
    And you will come to find that we are all one mind
    (*)
    Just let the light touch you and let the words spill thorough
    Just let them pass right through, bringing out our hope and reason.

    before I pine away.
    before I pine away.
    before I pine away.
    before I pine away.


    (*) waiting for confirmation